Even I have not achieved a 100% freedom from impure thoughts and masturbation, for example, as my specific favorite sexual addiction behaviour, why should I still continue to find ways and means to master chastity in myself? It seems there is no reason left after decades of struggle already.
Despite the failure, I find my Catholic faith my primary reason for continuing to struggle until death, hoping that someday somewhere if not here on earth I will find myself completely capable of controlling my sexual capacity for good.
Even my struggle is imperfect, that's fair enough. Am I just rationalizing again my sin? No, that's why I need to do my chastity works and continue to examine my conscience and receive forgiveness in the sacrament of confession. Stopping the work would mean the start of complete defeat. Raise your prayer to the Blessed Virgin Mary to help you at least to achieve once a month relapse only if you are presently committing twice a week sin of masturbation. But if it fails to come by, learn to submit thyself to God's bidding.
Again, does it matter that you continue your chastity work? Yes, and it is your pledge of allegiance to God to do so, proving that despite your imperfect struggle, you still wait for that glorious days of complete holiness of life.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners!
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